Another Day.

I hate how I refer to each new day as “another stressful day.” I hate the beginning and ironically the end of each day, because that means that another fucking day is about to start. The highlight of each of my days is me going to sleep.

4 August 2010 ·

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Insomnia

Megadeth

A song from my favorite band.

I don’t know why people hate on “Risk” so much. Sure it’s a departure from the typical thrash metal that Megadeth does, but it’s in no way a bad album. I enjoy quite enjoy it and this is a severely underrated song.

3 August 2010 ·

Capricorn with a Pisces Rising: FUCK.

whythisisthewaythingsare:

scientology:

whythisisthewaythingsare:

scientology:

scientology:

Dude, just imagine my horrible nagging voice repeating the advice I’ve given you each time you feel like doing that. Eventually you’ll get sick of me and hopefully then you won’t want to do that.

I’m also very stubborn.

Oh yes, I know.

And a hopeless romantic, a cynic, a…

I was a hoe and I’m a masochist. But there is a problem with who you are if it hurts you emotionally and even if you try to fix those demons or faults or whatever you’d like to call them, it just returns and slaps you back in the face. I just can’t change. So I guess I’ll just give up on trying to change.

You’ve got a point. But I fully accept the person who I am, minus many physical aspects of course, so I don’t let it effect me emotionally. I don’t fret about my “hoe” actions and my “sadist” actions.

And it doesn’t always have to slap you in the face. Persistence and determination is key. Those two things can get you anywhere in life, at least that’s my opinion.

You can change if you want to… maybe you just need an extra push.

Well, in actuality, it doesn’t really bother me and I fully accept myself even if it hurts me in the process. But hypothetically speaking, how would I get an extra push? I don’t have anyone I care about enough to change, I don’t mind myself, and it really doesn’t affect my future goals.

Why were you trying to change if you already accepted yourself? You do not, EVER, have to change yourself in order to gain something… whether it be a job, significant other, etc. 

Because believe it or not, caffeine-addiction/sensitivity when combined can become a serious medical issue and it alters my personality, energy, and overall well-being. But I’ll cut that bullshit, because I know that I changed to get Fallon back because in my sick mind, I thought that if I could become “better” as society or as she deems it, she’d think of me as a person again. And my planned career choice would just love me as I am right now because I’d a fucking showman.

3 August 2010 ·

Capricorn with a Pisces Rising: FUCK.

whythisisthewaythingsare:

scientology:

scientology:

Dude, just imagine my horrible nagging voice repeating the advice I’ve given you each time you feel like doing that. Eventually you’ll get sick of me and hopefully then you won’t want to do that.

I’m also very stubborn.

Oh yes, I know.

And a hopeless romantic, a cynic, a…

I was a hoe and I’m a masochist. But there is a problem with who you are if it hurts you emotionally and even if you try to fix those demons or faults or whatever you’d like to call them, it just returns and slaps you back in the face. I just can’t change. So I guess I’ll just give up on trying to change.

You’ve got a point. But I fully accept the person who I am, minus many physical aspects of course, so I don’t let it effect me emotionally. I don’t fret about my “hoe” actions and my “sadist” actions.

And it doesn’t always have to slap you in the face. Persistence and determination is key. Those two things can get you anywhere in life, at least that’s my opinion.

You can change if you want to… maybe you just need an extra push.

Well, in actuality, it doesn’t really bother me and I fully accept myself even if it hurts me in the process. But hypothetically speaking, how would I get an extra push? I don’t have anyone I care about enough to change, I don’t mind myself, and it really doesn’t affect my future goals.

3 August 2010 ·

Capricorn with a Pisces Rising: FUCK.

scientology:

Dude, just imagine my horrible nagging voice repeating the advice I’ve given you each time you feel like doing that. Eventually you’ll get sick of me and hopefully then you won’t want to do that.

I’m also very stubborn.

Oh yes, I know.

And a hopeless romantic, a cynic, a…

I was a hoe and I’m a masochist. But there is a problem with who you are if it hurts you emotionally and even if you try to fix those demons or faults or whatever you’d like to call them, it just returns and slaps you back in the face. I just can’t change. So I guess I’ll just give up on trying to change.

3 August 2010 ·

FUCK.

whythisisthewaythingsare:

scientology:

whythisisthewaythingsare:

scientology:

Why do I have the compulsive need to find answers even if it hurts me and those around me?

Dude, just imagine my horrible nagging voice repeating the advice I’ve given you each time you feel like doing that. Eventually you’ll get sick of me and hopefully then you won’t want to do that.

I’m also very stubborn.

Oh yes, I know.

And a hopeless romantic, a cynic, a caffeine addict, I just realized that I’m also a gambling addict, I eat a lot when I’m depressed, and I hate people.

3 August 2010 ·

FUCK.

whythisisthewaythingsare:

scientology:

Why do I have the compulsive need to find answers even if it hurts me and those around me?

Dude, just imagine my horrible nagging voice repeating the advice I’ve given you each time you feel like doing that. Eventually you’ll get sick of me and hopefully then you won’t want to do that.

I’m also very stubborn.

3 August 2010 ·

FUCK.

Why do I have the compulsive need to find answers even if it hurts me and those around me?

3 August 2010 ·

"If you believe in God, you believe in the devil."

Taken from Cynthia’s Tumblr

I think John Lennon said it the best, “God is a concept by which we measure our pain.” Basically anyone damaged enough is going to turn to God, because they feel like nothing worldly can help them. This is why the Twelve Step program for alcoholics is based on religious value, because just to say “I will quit drinking for my friends and family” isn’t enough for someone who is at rock bottom. But I’m beginning to hate religion in general. I don’t believe in God or Jesus Christ, though I do find the Megadeth song “Looking Down the Cross” interesting because it says that Jesus would feel anger before his crucifixion instead of forgiveness. And I think that everyone is a devil in their own right. People are just so fucking stupid that they’ll tear each other to pieces for minuscule reasons. So in a way, I believe in not necessarily the devil, but a greater evil, and not a God, which is like saying that I believe in a curse but no cure.

3 August 2010 ·

9 plays

Time: The Beginning

Megadeth

Day Ten - A song that makes you fall asleep.


It’s probably just me but I have fallen asleep to this song before.

2 August 2010 ·

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